Promises

How many times do we make promises we cannot keep or make promises and break them? I am not saying I cannot keep a promise, but sometimes the reasons why a promise is not fulfilled do not depend entirely on me. I know I am not the only ones who make bigger promises sometimes, but truth is if I am not 10% sure I can deliver the promise I always promise to try to make the promise happen and not just only promise the thing away.

Anyways, for today I have a new poem for you. One I wrote while in university - it is there were I wrote most of my poems and creative writing; and it is always when I am sad that i get a pen and paper and start scribbling. So it is better for me not to write any new poems.;)

I promised myself

I promised myself

I won't get involved anymore

I promised myself

I won't care about anyone

I promised myself

to learn how to be selfish

and insensitive

I promised myself

to be strong and elusive

I promised myself

not to cry for you anymore

I promised myself

so many things

and failed to keep these promises

even to myself.

And in the end I promised myself

to stop promising

things that I cannot do

and promised to be the way I am:

getting involved in things I want to

caring about you

and above all I promised myself

to be the way I am forever

and find me someone who can appreciate

me the way I am.

That was the promise I made to myself.

I promised myself

to stop caring

to stop crying

to stop getting involved

I promised myself

to stop giving my heart away

to stop thinking about "what if"-s

to stop listening to what others say

I promised myself

these and much more...

I promised myself

never to get hurt again

I promised myself

to try and understand the world.

But first I promised myself

to take everything slowly

step by step

until I can learn to keep

the promises I make to myself.